the energy around the apartment got a little frightening last night.
the amount of spiritual activity was getting out of hand.
mr. tall white demon does not want to give up easy. he is so powerful... he was able to do things that i had never experienced before. opening drawers, turning on water, splitting time, moving objects between rooms... what else will he be able to do?
he is mad that he lost the soul and now he is after mine.... damn bastard is hiding in my closet at the moment. man i hope our plan worked... the whole apartment smells of sage. and my st. michael and espiritu santo candles burn with a vengeance but kind of smell like armpits....
richard's soul is safe. i know this because i saw it. it rained for us. it rained for him. the first rain all summer. i grabbed clara and we ran in the rain. we rain to the backyard of the apartments and stood on the deck that overlooks the oso bay. i finally got my release, i finally got my cleanse. it was the most beautiful and peaceful sight... i could feel the earth and everything on it breathing. when the rain was almost finished there appeared in the sky a single white cloud. the heavens were beaming from the cloud straight down to the earth in a horizontal pathway of light. clara turns to me and says, do you see that? that is what it looks like when a soul is accepted into heaven. her grandmother taught her this. i glanced at this uniquely beautiful sight. it was like nothing i had every seen before. it struck me that the rays of light were directed exactly to the part of town where his body lay. i took a moment to pray. may his soul be able to pass. may his soul be in peace. i turned to clara and thanked her. i thanked her for being in my life. for being such a great friend for me. for listening and understanding, for testing, for teaching. she had never been told such a thing before and didn't know what to say. i told her to just take it. i told her, all she has to do is take what i said. i said just take it. take it. she turns and says, they took it. i looked back to the sky and the cloud was gone. they took his soul. he is now in peace.
i have found much resolution now. i was not able to help him in life, but i was able to help him in death... i only wish that i could tell his family, tell the others what i know. what i saw.... but i do not think that they would believe me. though they are catholic and ought to. but then again, that would prove their faith wrong since they don't believe in forgiveness to the ones who take their own life. which is weird to me because of course that is what they would want for their loved one. oh religion...its so restricting
but all i could do was give away all of my strength to any one who needed it at the funeral today. left me feeling a little down and out but that's alright.
jeez.... his body looked nothing like him. how horrible. and the leaving song part II played...
Don't waste your touch, you won't feel anything
Or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much, you won't find anything...
Worthy of redeeming
Break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
Imperfect cry, and scream in ecstasy
So what befalls the flawless?
Look what I've built, it shines so beautifully
Now watch as it destroys me
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all to die
I saw its birth, I watched it grow
I felt it change me
I took the life, I ate it slow
Now it consumes me
Break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
the lyrics fit so well that it is a little freaky...
10:25 p.m. - 2009-08-31
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